A work in progress

"Angel Take the Ride baby!"

Come on Angel take the ride
Angel, baby won't you please
put your hand in mine
and I hope you'll see
I can show you a good time!
Angel baby take the ride with me!

(as noted this is a work in progress I am not finished but oh well)

Whatever Happened to You?

Whatever happened to you???

I remember seeing you on the first day of school.
I remember being so in love
And all along it was you.
The times we had together, the laughter, we didn’t give a damn
We were outcasts, and yet so far apart, I don’t know why
Wandering around and I wonder who I am
That I made you say goodbye
I saw your picture the other day, you had a Mohawk
And there was a cigarette dangling from your mouth
I saw you the other day and all I heard was dirty talk
And I had to cry and wonder what all of that was about.
I wish I could see the boy I loved so innocent
I used to love him, I think I still do
But now he’s dead replaced with you
And I am so sorry that I didn’t show it.

Lone Free

a few ages ago I left my life
and headed for the mountains
I wasn't gonna be no wife
I wasn't about to get hurt again

Lone Free, it's the way to be
none to care for but yourself
some days you wanna die, youre so lonely
and nowhere you turn is any help
Lone Free it's not it's all made to be

so I packed up my stuff
and went westward hitchikin
to where there's more than enough
to go 'round is worth everythin

I am finally, finallly free oh,free
that is what I aimed to be
to account for only me
I don't work that way, I now see
you cannot be Lone Free
for all you will be is lonly

Father

Our Father who lives in heaven
blessed be your name on our lips
may your word be as bread
so we know how to forgive and how to live
a holy and righteous life as you meant

and may we not forget
all you've done for us oh, god
and teach us not to be tempted or to tempt
in exchange here's my life it's all I got!

Knives and Swords

locked in my room I lay
in light darkness I shut my eyes
and fumble with keys to open my brain
to stop the horrible knives

which lay at my bare feet
I cannot stop what happens
I want to be set free
I find my soul frozen in my brain

The only thought is pain undone
but I must put myself away
along with the son
at the end of the day

Draw your battle lines in red blood
over all that is left of the old
drag your only name in the mud
because you didn't do what you were told

Blame yourself for all his wrongs
take everything upon your soul to make his white
pain still exists when he's gone
you still see scars in the light

get out little girl, leave this place
here are the keys to your brain, free soul
dancing, dancing for joy, no more hate
in Him you are made whole

No more scars, no more tears
the pity I felt for a monster
had turned to pure fear
but he's no longer there

Fragile

Hold it up in the light
turn it this way and that
see through every side
a whole gorgeous carat

so fragile, is it your heart
no, just an image of your beuty
a work of god's art
the glass of the sea

is not your soul
but it can shatter the same
and leave an empty hole
a place for a stone to hang

the peice and quiet is broken
in the peace of the night
it will not be the same again
beuty may end tonight
it's just a matter of when

ANGEL

Ambassador
Near
God's
Eternal
Love

Electric
Rollicking
Independant
Christian

Life Restored

Jesus, holy lamb of God
I give all I am
for blood it was bought
and silver scattered on forgotten sand
Jesus, holy lamb of God
take control of the wheel
I am sorry I forgot
to declare what I know instead of feel
Jesus, holy lamb of God
I will praise you forever
You are all I seem to have got
but I will always love you no matter
Jesus, holy son of God
worthy of all I am
I love you Jesus, I love you God!
Thank you, Thank you, Thank you untill the end
Jesus holy lamb of God
Jesus take control
Jesus take control
Jesus just take it all
Just take control
before once again I fall
Just take it all
Jesus take control
Jesus take control
Jesus
Jesus



the theme, I owe to EMAN, thank-you!
and the words I owe to God! thanks!
This is not mine, it's His!

Untitled

searching inward among the debris/in his hands he holds his head/looking for what's left of peace/and almost wishes he were dead/he just wants to be loved/he just wants to be friends/don't you think he's tried enough?/don't you think that he's like the other men/it's been said that the greatest/ is to love and be loved in return/just like the lord jesus christ/to give and get more than you deserve/so keep up your head high/Daddy,daddy,daddy it's alright/eveyrthing will work out fine/it's ok to feel the way you do tonight/I know...He just wants to be loved/he just wants to have a friend/hasn't he had enough/he don't deserve none of it/keep on going, keep on trying/daddy, daddy daddy will find one/to love and life a whole life/and then all's said and done/and he looks back and goes/boy was I ever wrong /god has more in store you know/just stay strong, just stay strong/Searching inward among the debris/in his hands he holds his head/looking for what's left of peace/and no longer feels as dead

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The Letdown Sessions

All of these are from the "Letdown"period of 2005-06(from Nov 05 to March 06) these may not really represent my thinking now. If you have any questions please drop me a line.

All identities have been protected, as frustrated as I may possibly be.

Torn
I cannot cry, I cannot laugh
my heart is torn in two
by a man named E*** *raff
and I don't know what to do
he has many identities such as "R*** *aff"
and because of them I am so confused
how often and to whom has he lied in past?
is the person I know just another ruse?

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Silence
And he is silent, blames me for my silence
nothing seems to be his fault
I want to look long into your eyes
and see memories long hall

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Untitled
Words are swords, thoughts are knives
on a paper plane I commit suicide
does anyone know I've gone and died
come, look into my fearful eyes

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Questions
With all the questions I have
with all the mixed emotions running through
No matter what I say to *** *raff
he'll not understand what I do
So no more talk of love,peace and Iraq
it's settled, we both support the troops
I hope he can understand just that
I want them to come home too!

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The wish
I would ask you to love me back
and I wish I could make it so
but wishes are all that I have

feel

can I speak, can I hear or feel
when you are so far away from me
to tell the truth of what is real
can I even see?

I feel so angry and so nothing
I do not know anymore
and I wonder if my mind is bending
the twisted truth even more

can I speak, can I hear or feel
this all feels so far away from me
and it's all too real.
and I just do not want to really see

am I being stupid for pulling the wool
over my eyes in hopes that it's alright?

I speak, I hear I feel
a decision of precision is immanent
I want to do His will
but severance is permanant