Cry me a river

I said some things that I should not have in a public place about a friend of mine about some things in my sick little mind and his buddies found out and want to kick him out of the band he's in. He didnt do anything wrong. I was the one initiating contact, postings etc and this bothers me greatly because it's my godfather.I admire him greatly, I have lots of respect and as of late, I have been thinking things that I shouldn't and I dont know where they came from, I wanted to explore that a little, get to the bottom of it, but I did not make my intentions known and furthermore talking about it in such a public place was very wrong. I did just about every thing wrong. It's totally "rainbows" man!Where did I go wrong? It was in that. I am so sorry for what I did. Words cannot express my feelings right now, but he doesn't deserve to be kicked out of the band. Not for something as pitifully stupid as this. I am shocked that the band is even considering it. Esepcially considering it's a christian band and supposedly they are supposed to practice forgiveness. Oh well then, forget the bible it's just a dusty old book right? Sure, that's true faith! I want to retaliate, and leave and never come back but that would be the easy thing., to get angry and resort to stupid measures. I want to talk about it. why? why such drastic action guys? why does it seem to me that you are not practicing your faith? why does something seem amiss? is there something I dont know?I am crying a river, and attempting to build a bridge to get over it...please help?I think of this night and day, I pray with everything may god do his will, maybe it is time for him to leave but I do not feel it. God is silent. Hence my confusion.