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a new rush wave of euphoria black as the night enveloped me and took me in
it was beutiful, wanted accepted he was white as blameless paper to write
but I had no idea that my world's plane was traveling on air that thin
and I nearly became permanantly a fixture in the night

dead, was i hopless too
this was what I called the end
yell for god untill you are blue
do we mean what we've said?

peace came and took me away in a golden chariot lined with the fire of god
illisions, hallucinations came for a ride along with me
I dreamed of giving life back everything that I have got
and of a world built without ever ending

I dreamed I would be apart
of all that was before
I didnt realise it would be hard
and I would get slammed to the floor

by allowing the euphoria to creep in
and grab a hold with its long arms
and hold me shackled in my sin
sneering "this is who you are"

I have not seen that black being for some time now
I only cry tears in the day at the struggle for honesty
and tell the truth as much as my shackled soul will allow
in the future now, I do not know what will be

but I sense something coming,
I worry it is euphoria
or someting worse that will strike me
and smatter to peices my aura.

No matter what I think or how I say it
I am still an old child
take a little peek underneath my lid
and see the mystery of denial.